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Orientation

So Austin and I missed orientation today. Lolz. Transcript needed? nahhh. Last night was so unnecessarily stressful. I considered majoring business for a whopping hour and a half. What is wrong with me. I want to do too much. And not go to college at all. How bout I just open up craftomatic soul, a comedy club or two, make money as a comic book colorist for a few months, write a book and go to Astoria, Oregon so I can find someone else who loves the goonies as much as I do. wah. Complain complain complain. That's all this is. I guess on a brighter note Nussbaum & Honeycutt are home. If you think you spend a lot of time with your friends, think again. Road trip next week. WOOT. Sulphur Springs. The Pines Catholic camp to visit kite and then random cities in oklahoma? Why not. Maybe I'll come back really tan, tatooed and with unnatural colors in my hair. big lolz. The mixed cds for this trip are going to be greater than ever before.Themed and competition style, i have a very good feeling about kelsey losing. You know what grinds my gears? people who use their xanga to passive aggressively attack others without mentioning their name. Whoops. Guess I just did that. WRITERS BLOCK.

yuck.

I've been sick since sunday. Strep-like feelings of ear canal trauma. WOOHOO. You know what that means? I was sick through graduation. Kelsey's dinner. And what will be Eugene's surprise goodbye party in 4ish hours. Awesome. Graduation was interesting. It made me feel like I didnt know anyone at our school. Oh and with Yinga behind me, I can't hear a damn thing when I'm by myself except for ringing. Thanks girl, love you. ha. Lindsey's family got me pearl earings and kelsey's mom is giving me a bike. I'm super glad my friends family love me more than my actual family. Jaspers last night was so delicious. Crab cakes of glory. I wish I felt better. I did college searching today. It made me feel really depressed. Like I have to start all over again. Austin should go with me to CCCC[d?!] registration. Maybe I should tell him. I feel like such a failure going to community college. Rich bastards thinking a 1500 grant was going to do anything more than fly me and my shit up to columbia, MO. phooey. Lindsey wants me to write in this. And I should be happy to write in it for the sake of writing, but of course without feedback I see no point. I could easily tell this stuff to myself in the shower. Wow I'm a sad sack. Sorry for th nasty gram, readers. I need to see up. And marry a bean pole black man. who is jewish. Thanks.

hide & seek

Life is crazy right now. i never thought I'd be a victim of senioritis. I'm failing errrthing. Lies, but it feels like it. I can't express my dismay that every person I love is moving away next year and I have to stay in Plano because of something as trivial as money. What the hell. I deserve to go to that school. And I deserve those scholarships I got. My mom's cancer is...better? Losing her hair was really hard. I just clam up and don't know what to do. I feel guilty that I'm never at home, but getting away makes it easier to pretend it's not happening. I love my friends. Adventure landing with tatty, karsten, eugene, shayan, josh and vaman was amazing. It felt like 1999. Then shayan, josh and I did our weekly movie horror night. This week: the strangers. Lets be real, I fell asleep because I was so traumatized the first time. Then we just stayed up and talked in the dark. Until 3 am. whoops... I havent slept in 25 hours. Which is really okay because I just got home from oceans, my favorite place on earth, with my favorite people on earth. Lindsey kite, honeycutt, kelsey and austin :) lovelovelove. My heart just feels so heavy knowing everyone's moving on to bigger and better things and I'm here. For another whole year at least. Why am I such a snob? I am le tired. peace out girl scout!